My best thing to do with my husband (we've been married for six years and have two kids) is have sex.He told me it was his favorite thing to do with me too... It's the most open and personal way for me to be vulnerable...
There are a few things that are really hurting it....
-My husband doesn't want to have sex and can't keep it going for more than five or ten minutes at a time (this has been a problem for about a year)...
-Rarely any foreplay, which I've asked for years but only get small amounts of because he gets too excited during and then can't keep it up when I'm ready for sex.
-I have problems with POP (Pelvic Organ Prolapse), which makes some of his favorite positions painful for me....
As my husband's libido and erections started to act up, I was patient with him. I also tried to be kind to my body when it was having POP problems. But when I say "mismatched," I only mean in the last year. Neither of these things were problems before. But now he hasn't been interested in it at all unless it's been about two weeks (I like to have it three times a week). Then all of a sudden he wants it, but he finishes too quickly because he's sensitive, leaving me unhappy and irritated. He can't have it with me as often as I want him to...
For a while now, I've had the feeling that there's something more going on, like a chemical unbalance, because things weren't always this way... We had great sex when he was all over me. But things are so bad now... That makes me so angry and annoyed all the time when I think about it. Because he doesn't think he can keep it up, he won't even touch me anymore. He said he'd rather not bother at all.
I NEED him... I MISS him... If you ask most women, they say that HIS entry is the only thing that gets them excited, but I have a pretty strong fetish for dick worship/pleasing... I can't go on masterbation because it doesn't meet my wants to be close to him and make him happy😏
We haven't done anything sexual in at least a week and a half, and I'm really upset about it because I'm going on vacation with my sisters in a few days, which means we won't be able to do anything sexual then either. When I get back, it will have been three weeks since we last did anything sexual, which is the longest time we've ever gone without doing anything sexual unless I just had a baby....
After I begged and begged him, he finally made an appointment with the doctor for today to get Viagra. The doctor also ordered blood work because he thinks he may not have enough testosterone. The blood work will take at least three days to process, and then he can be treated with either Viagra or hormone therapy. But I'll be away from August 3rd to August 10th... He forgot about his blood work visit today, so he has to wait until Monday... To try with me again, I know we don't have a chance if he wants to wait for medical help...
I feel so alone and bad inside. I look and feel ugly, unwelcome, and unattractive... I'm not sure I am... Even though I have curves, big breasts, a small waist, and a pretty face, I still feel ugly and unattractive to him... Though I know it could be medical, my stupid, anxious mind keeps telling me he's just no longer interested in me... Just want to feel close to him again, and I think I can't do that without sex because touch is such an important part of my main love language.
